sometimes i miss her and shes just upstairs sleeping. lately i just want to hold her close and keep her to myself. i feel like we’re so close and almost like she’s my best friend. when i cry she says “don’t be sad mommy” and gives me a kiss. sometimes she acts like shes taking care of me.

earlier we were outside sitting on our chairs, watching josh pick hot peppers. i was getting eaten alive by mosquitoes. i said “i think one bit my butt” and she said “turn around, let me see.” so i did, laughing of course. “here, let me kiss it better.”

i’m getting very excited for this baby to come join us so chloe and i can teach her all kinds of wonderful things but at the same time i’m very anxious. i worry that i will be so busy with the baby that these moments won’t come as often. i also worry that chloe will feel left out at times. i want to include her in any way i can and i want her to be around all the time so she feels like she’s still my princess. i will love them both the same no matter what, i just hope the transition to being the only child to big sister goes smoothly. seeing as she takes care of me sometimes, i’m sure she will do the same for her sister.